Before I write this blog, i want to thank everybody who reads these blogs.
Like really, i really really appreciate yall taking time out yall day to pick my brain.
Who am I? I am who I desire to be and what the higher power's will is for me to be.
I am the pink sheep of my family. The one who prays at night to be normal.
Determined to be everything that distinguishes me from the rest of humanity.
I am an Aries, rude, nonchalant, happy go lucky, optimistic and weird individual.
Like really, who says half the shit i say? Who does half the shit i do?
My friends call me a weirdo. .because i have this fatal disease, its terrible.
Its called "leap before u look" syndrome. It's a killer, it really is.
As far as connections with other humans, its kinda hard for me.
But females is another story. Like its really hard for me to have relationships with girls.Because 1 I didnt have the best relationship with my mother. It was kinda rocky and difficult in the beginning.
They say if you have a bad relationship with your mom, nine times outta ten you'll have relationship problems.
Another reason is because when I fell in love for the first time, I was dumb young, like 14.
And at that age, I didnt even know who i truly was, let alone what love really is.
When things didnt work out the way i wanted it to, I took it as a pretty hard lost.
So I promised myself I would do everything I can to make sure I never felt that pain again.
So in actuality I subconsciously do things to push people away for avoid being hurt or taking a loss.
I mean other niggas, i can talk to, have a friendship with whatever and that's not a problem.
( lmao wow at me just realizing this) But yeah, I have relationship anxiety.
But don't get it twisted. I'm the most loyal, trustworthy, loving compassionate friend you could ever have.
I'm a good person at heart but just like everybody else, I tend to make a few mistakes . . or just fuck up a lot.
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