roses and revenge. .

alright. so like. by popular demand. i was asks to speak on love.

lol im sorry its hard to do this seriously but yea ok here i go

ahem. lmao wtf.  .ok ok ok . . so yeah. . im really gonna go in.

have u ever met a person, that like easily fall in love? i mean like full blast too.

they type of guy that give the chick the last name like a day after they start dating?

or a chick that rocks the last name after like 2 days after days after they start dating?

i mean im not tryna come off as a hater. but its like. . our generation fall in love mad quick.

like they fall head over heels and and makes that person their whole life. its wild.

i know imma catch mad heat for this. "haze u sound mad salty g." or "this nigga hatin and shit"

i mean i must speakin off the top of the dome for real -kanye shrugs-. then when that couple fall out,

they wanna go on this whole "fuck niggas/bitches, they aint shit" movement. which is quite not fair cause

u cant hold the whole gender accountable for that one person. but yeah i believe love exist. its like a rose.

its a beautiful thing to have but very hard to take care of and can come with so much pain. like on some real shit if people fell in like first, when they fall in love, things would go a lot more smoother. but yeah. thats all i have to say on that topic. im getting kinda tired of typin lol. so yeah.  .until the next post. . ADIOS!!! :)

im just sayin tho. .

"if i watch porn, then they say im a perve/ if i flirt, they say i way

with the words. can i not be the bad guy?" -Charels Hamilton

alright so if ur not familiar with this guy, this is charles hamilton.

i know yall like "who is this guy? why is he being mentioned?"

cause like this is my twin and he dont know it. got it? that was too fast? damn. sucks for u. moving on. so like u ever realized,

when we into a certain person, they're the greatest person ever?

but then when they do us wrong all of a sudden they're "ugly, lame, swaggless, a bitch" lmao like wow. on jay-z's song "lucky me", in the beginning he starts out "how can a nigga hate a nigga he never even met, dont even know?". that echoes in my head everyday. it makes me wonder. like people be like damn haze. . u good? u straight? im fucking lovely . . lol. . like im as awesome as im gonna get. even though i do believe in ghosts and aliens lol.

oh yeah i know what i wanted to talk about. . everything before this statement was just . . inteligent rambling lol sorry. but yeah. i wanna go i non the concept of marriage. i believe in marriage of the minds. the soul, the heart. but i dont belive in what you  humans call "marriage". to me, nowadays, people see marriage as a meal ticket or an excuse. when  people get "legally" married, people change physically and emotionally. now aint that a bitch? lol. but i do belive in union because of love. just like i believe in God. but why do i have to be in a certain building to worship him? on that note. i would like to thank the devil. ( watches him walk up to the stage and accept his award ). i mean seriously, without him, there wouldn't be a need for blessing. ( uh oh, watches the christains rush in lol)*ahem* but yeah. . im sorta kinda done. just wanted to let yall know a few more thoughts and opinions i had formulated. oh yeah. im in the midsts of writing rock songs. so yeah be on the look for that. welp. i said all i have to say right now. . so yeah ADIOS!!!!

reconciliation

ladies and gentlemen, meet my dad.

yes this is the other participant of the team that gave me life.

we look alike? huh?.

oddly, even tho he wasn't in my life.

he still taught me a few life lessons.

taught me what it means to be a real man.

inspired me to be a better father.

even inspired me to be a better sailor lol.

but honestly, i had so much anger and hostility towards this guy before i met him.

then we met.

its funny cause he never knew me as a child.

but now he gets the blessing to know me as a man. (that's right i said it lol)

so honestly, I'm not even mad anymore.

i met him, got the questions i wanted answered.

now i can move on forward with my life .

and pursue my dreams and goals.

welp thats all for this post.

till our souls meet again mi amigos.

ADIOS!!!!

lol. . . i think they call this. . venting?

wow. . lol. first off. i just wanna thank God for giving me the breath and the mindset to even post this blog.

like wow. im actually excited to write this because it could have been another way. but he allowed me to do this.

honestly, i believe in re-incarnation. like i honestly think i had a past life. because when i was younger i was ahead of me time. my body hasn't caught up with my mind yet. but this blog is going outside the box. because

i actually had a conversation with tupac. i know yall like "wow is this guy serious?" lol yes. yes i am. it was rather interesting tho. because i really wasnt a big fan of pac. but he spoke on some true shit tho. like he was cool that i didnt think he was the best. he told me he wasnt tryn to be the best. he just wanted to make music to help niggas cope with everyday life. he made music for the hood, not the money. he was a real cool dude. i enjoy our convo. matter of fact, he told me he wanted to work wit me on a track. one to the next one. lol. im trying to relinquish some old habits. its rather hard lol. despite the reason for my habits, i really need to let them go. like i cant let people hinder me as an artist or as a person. lately, i been my only hinderence. the only thing thats stopping kevin thomas from growins, is haze a million. lol wow did i just really do that? lol anways. everyday is an epic struggle between the artist and me and my moral standards. thats why everything i do is so precious cause i go against all odds and actually post it. i never second guess anything because i feel as tho thats robbing me of the raw passion my artistic vision. ( takes a deep breath ) but yeah. i rambled on enough. till next times our souls depart and connect. ITS YA BOY!!!! hahahaha

sorta kinda spazzin

so like. . its about ( looks at my watch) 5:56pm right now. like really im just goin off the top with this post.
i feel pretty good in life right now. .like im 20, no kids, in the navy and life is cool. i mean i just lost my momz (figuretifly speakin acourse). so does that make me an orphan? (lol).  but seriously... i been really contemplating.
and like wow. i just have so many thoughts and ideas nobody will understand. im not saying God doesn't exist. but i be wondering, when i pray, who do i actually pray to? like who hears my prayers? but i do believe in God.
i mean there gotta be somebody up there lookin out for me cause i shoulda been dead a while ago. ok now we off that (drake voice haha). but uhh im tryna teeder todder my personal space and relationships with women. i mean, how can u love somebody when that somebody dont love themselves? i do the best i can tho. everybody deserves a shot at respect. i mean i do what i can to be a good man. they say the best teacher in life is mistakes. if u cant learn from ur mistakes, ur doomed to make em again. ahem. but uhh yeah. . like i said. im doin alotta balance right now. like im tryna balance between being Haze -A- Million and Kevin Thomas (i know yall like this guy a skitzo). but uhmm right now i just got a alotta things goin on, ya know. 
but all in all i think in the end it will be worth it. . . shwam!

Man In The Mirror

I always told myself never stray from the foundation 

but now I became the very thing I found myself hatin

over the years, I made so much progress

but at the same time, it feels like I regressed 

u know it's funny cause when we was kids, I used to pretend to be a hero

I guess now I replaced that with my alter ego

I been so busy getting caught in the hype and the fame 

that I don't even answer to my own damn name

but dog, can u blame me? I'm only human

I'm pretty sure if u could've, you'd probably do it

it's funny cause I keep staring at the reflection

but no matter how hard I try, I have no recollection

of the person that's staring me dead into my pupils

like dog, this aint the same guy that I'm used to

but I know what to do, I just gotta do it

but it's kinda hard when I can't find the blueprint

I always told myself, that I'd grow and evolve

but I didn't think compromising who I was would be involved

all I know is that as long as I can breathe, I promise

I'm gonna find and get back to the old Kevin Thomas

forbidden lovin. .

it's funny how one event can set off some more.
we went from watching movie to sexin on the floor
lights on, everybody awoke and ya panties to the side
you moanin my name, bitin my neck while im inside.
on top of me with ya hands my chest grippin me tightly
u screamin give it to me harder, im screamin mami bite me
change positions, im on top with ya legs on my shoulders
u tellin me how good it is, im tellin u i been told ya
a few hours past and me and u still at it
im tryna beat that pussy like its a bad habit
ya cell phone ringnin but u keep pressin ignore
he keeps callin and callin while u screamin give me more
once was a church boy but u got the kid sinnin
pussy so wet, got me feelin like im swimmin
u whisperin in my ear "dont stop, im bout to cum"
kissin u deeply while im beatin ya pussy like a drum. .
faster strokes as ya legs start to quiver .
givin it to u so good, u feel it in ya liver
minus the count down launch like a shuttle
after we done, u kiss me and say "i love you" . .

to be continued. . .round 2 :)